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发表于 2022-11-25 16:13:55
从小被父母忽视，长大后如何学会爱自己？
<p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">天才少女谷爱凌刷屏了。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">比起她在冬奥会上取得的成绩和斯坦福大学的标签，更让我欣赏和羡慕的是，她拥有过人的</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">做自己的勇气：</span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">在已经稳拿铜牌或银牌的情况下，她都仍然选择在最后一跳，挑战自己从未尝试过的1620高度，成功摘金。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">这个选择非常冒险，如果失败，就意味着她什么奖牌都拿不到，还很可能被众人嘲笑“不自量力”。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">但她不在乎。她更在乎自己的感受，想要挑战，那便去挑战。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">在冬奥会这样的大竞技台上，在国际瞩目下，她为什么依然能纯粹地“做自己”？</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">因为，从小到大，她的自我都是被看见、被重视、被鼓励的。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">在她的成长过程中，妈妈始终把她的感受放在第一位：在她已经展示出傲人的滑雪天赋后，仍然说</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">“</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">你要是觉得滑雪不快乐，那就算滑得再好也别滑了</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">”</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">所以谷爱凌，也始终把自己的想法和感受放在第一位，在滑雪、学习、生活中皆是如此。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">能够勇敢做自己，这是多么纯粹、大胆、肆意的人生！</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">但，生活中，又有多少人拥有这样的勇气和自由呢？</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我们更常听到的故事是“父母从未在意孩子的感受”，这些孩子一路战战兢兢地长大，别说做自己，有时候连表达自己都不敢；</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">他们一直追寻着别人的认可和爱，甚至委屈自己，讨好别人，将生活的重心放在他人身上，从未真正看见自己，关心自己。</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">他们活得已经足够小心翼翼，生活却还是很累很难。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">下面故事中的主人公袋鼠，就是这样一个女孩。</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">但幸运的是，在经过一系列打击后，她通过自己的努力和心理医生的帮助，终于走上了“看见自己、成为自己”的道路。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">这不是个容易的故事。希望能带给你一些触动和启发。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;">以下是袋鼠的自述。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: 16px;">01</span></h1><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: 16px;">从原生家庭到爱情</span><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></h1><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"></h1><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">我</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">追逐爱，却总被抛弃</span></h1><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我的成长经历，说起来混乱复杂。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">小时候，我跟奶奶生活。父母在外务工，他们关系不和睦，</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">哪怕是难得回来一趟，也不会花心思关心我，而是在我面前说对方的坏话，把所有的坏情绪都撒在我身上。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">作为他们情绪的垃圾桶，我偶尔也能捡到一颗糖吃。只是最后，这些糖都会变成玻璃渣。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">比如，收到妈妈送我的一套小鸭子摆件，很可爱，我心里欢喜得很。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">但小鸭子放手里还没焐热呢，妈妈就拿了回去，说：</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">舅舅的房子空了些，我拿去送给他。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">在父母眼里，好像所有人，都比我更重要。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">在我十来岁时，父母离异重组了家庭，两边各生了一个弟弟。软软糯糯的小孩子，我很喜欢。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">只是，从那以后，本就不被重视的我，变得更加无足轻重，甚至还会被嫌弃。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">有一次同父异母的弟弟，光溜溜坐在一个脏兮兮的铁沙发上，我担心沙发太脏对他不好，就叫他起来，可是他不愿意，我越来越大声。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">弟弟哭了，继母在楼下听到哭声就骂我：</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">“</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">你心情不好就拿弟弟撒气</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">”</span></span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">高中时，我再次离开父母，去了东北，寄宿在二姨家。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">在二姨有事不在家的晚上，二姨夫打着手电筒摸进我的房间，爬上我的床，拉我的内裤。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">家人们都知道了。可是他们从来不问我的感受，反而不断盘问我当时的细节，哪怕当我痛苦到躲回床上，舅舅也会追到床边问：</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">到底有没有发生性关系？</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我终于承受不住了。原生家庭提供的一丁点温暖，再也不足以抚慰那些他们给予我的伤害。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">后来，我跟高中同学恋爱了。</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">他温暖了我的冬天，我们分手又复合，在一起六七年，同居2年，见了双方父母，打算结婚。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我以为，新生活会就此开始，我将永远摆脱原生家庭的阴影，过上光明快乐的日子。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">但在我日日构思新生活的细节，为新家庭做准备时，他劈腿了。他和他家人，一个谎接着一个谎地撒，每发现一个谎言我的痛苦就再加一分，直到我的世界彻底崩塌。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">我疯狂嘲笑自己，嘲笑那个觉得自己能够过上“和原生家庭完全不一样的美好生活”的女孩，嘲笑自己做了这么长时间的白日梦。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">巨大的孤独像海啸般向我袭来，把我卷起又抛下，淹没在海中心。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我去看了精神科医生。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></p><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: 16px;">02</span></h1><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: 16px;">从精神科到心理咨询</span><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></h1><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">自我救赎并不容易</span></h1><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">第一次看精神科医生，我就被诊断为重度抑郁，医生建议我吃药。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">但我心里很抗拒，觉得我没病，不想吃。直到我看了第三个医生，我才接受吃药，这是后话。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">我越来越焦虑，感觉不到饿，睡不着觉，整天头痛。上班越来越暴躁，后来辞了职，做兼职。躺在床上，明明水杯就在床头，却没有力气去拿。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">164cm</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">的身高，从一百零几斤，快速掉到了</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">80</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">几斤，瘦得不成样子。</span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我再次挂了精神科的号，找了第二个医生。这次是一个专家号，排了2个多小时，只聊了几分钟。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">医生还是叫我吃药，说不吃药会继续严重，我妥协了。但走出诊室，刚好自助缴费的机器断网了，好像天在助我，我就这样走了。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我觉得医生很冷漠，他们根本不在意我，我不想听到一句冷冰冰的“你病了”。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">后来一个朋友跟我说，你要不要去试一试心理科的医生，除了诊断开药，也会进行心理咨询。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">于是，我第三次求医，正式开启了救赎之路。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">医生也是咨询师，她很温柔，愿意听我讲话，了解我的想法，知道我的顾虑。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">她的温柔好像有什么魔力，这次我不再抗拒，愿意配合她提出的治疗方案。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: 16px;">03</span></h1><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: 16px;">整整一年吃药和咨询</span><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></h1><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"></h1><h1 style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-size: 24px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">我找到了我自己</span></h1><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我听了医生的话乖乖吃药，同时进行着心理咨询，每次半小时。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">通过咨询，我第一次知道我有情绪并不是</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">“</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">矫情”、“心理素质差</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">”</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">。</span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">第一次有人告诉我：</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">“每个正常人也总有情绪不好的时候，情绪也像身体一样会生病，这个事情就像感冒一样正常。感冒了吃药，情绪生病了吃药，是一样的。”</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我不必再为我的坏情绪歉疚，我只是生病了，所以我的坏情绪比其他人时间长一点是正常的。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">奇怪，我终于接受了自己“病”了的事实。也终于明白，之前之所以不愿意接受我病了，是因为，周围没有人接受：</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">爸爸说：</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">“</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">你不要听那些医生的，哪有什么病，乱吃药。</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">”</span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">妈妈说：</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">“</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我经历的比你多多了，要是像你这样，都不知道死了多少遍。有什么好抑郁的，又不是没爹妈，你就是心理素质太差。</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">”</span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">朋友说：</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">“</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">你就是失恋受了打击，没多大事。多出去动动，多挣钱，就什么毛病也没了。</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">”</span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">于是我就像一个严苛的判官，像所有人一样给自己下了判令：</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">你没事，你就是矫情！</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">在咨询的过程中，医生带我看见了我内心的小女孩。她已经千疮百孔了。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">医生说：</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">抱抱她，告诉她一切都会好起来，拉着她手跟她说，你会保护好她。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">从9月到1月，这个阶段，我知道我生病了，也知道自己为什么生病。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">但我仍然找不到活着的意义，情绪时常反复，又被确诊了双相。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">1月份有一天晚上，我躺在床上，被无力感和孤独感淹没，一直哭一直哭，不知道怎么才能停下来。然后，我觉得人生毫无希望了。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我吞下了</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">15</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">颗药片，在朋友圈留下了遗书。</span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">自杀没成功，大家看到遗书后，疯狂给我打电话，还有人报了警。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我接了一个电话，冷静了下来，想起抑郁症病友在急诊抢救的痛苦情景，感到害怕，打车去了医院。洗胃+两次透析，把命捡了回来。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我的心理医生曾到医院来看我。后来，我们再聊这件事情，她说：</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">你还有很多角色没有体会到。你现在是女儿，可你还没有体会过当妈妈是什么感觉，没看见过你的孩子第</span></span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">1</span></span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">次学会走路，第</span></span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">1</span></span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">次学会说话，第</span></span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">1</span></span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">次叫妈妈。你还没有当奶奶，当外婆。</span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">你还有很多事值得期待。就把人生当成是打游戏吧，所有的游戏角色都体验完了，每一个关卡都体验过了。那个时候，才是心满意足，要离开的时候。你这才短短的二十几年。</span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">她描述的这些美好未来，让我从根本上理解了我对家庭的渴望，重新激发了我的斗志。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我已经“死”过一次了，这一次，我只为我自己的愿望而活。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">这个阶段，医生开始教会我怎么正确看这个世界，怎么样正确看自己，怎么样面对自己的情绪。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我不再用非黑即白的角度看世界，开始接受它原本的样子，有正义也有黑暗，有善意也有恶意，有爱也有不公平对待。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我开始不那么在乎别人的需求，而是把自己的感受放在第一位，医生说，</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">这不是自私。要照顾别人可以，但是前提是要先让自己舒服，才有余力管别人，才能真正帮到别人。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我开始接受自己所有的样子，不够好就不够好，我接受，但我有变更好的能力，只要我愿意。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我开始对医生给我描绘的世界产生好奇，开始不满足现状。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">她说，</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">即使是正常人，冬天的时候情绪也会比较低落</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">。</span></span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">她说，</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">恭喜你，这么难熬的冬天都熬过去了，春天马上就要来了。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">我想可能所有好起来的人都是这样子，不是事情没有发生过，像没病过一样。而是我知道我生病了，我知道我为什么生病。我做好准备，我也有信心，一直对抗下去。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我的生活开始慢慢亮起来了。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">睡眠有好转，胃口很好，很少会头疼。我开始爱干净，开始打扮，认真工作，还重新谈了恋爱。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">就这样经过了冬天、春天、夏天、秋天。</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">到第二年的9月，情况很稳定，医生说可以减量了。</span><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">回想起这一年，就像是过了几辈子。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我现在大部分时间都无忧无虑，每天都笑呵呵的。当然也有情绪不对的时候，那我就会像医生教会我的那样，进行自我疏导。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">我很感谢那个医生，不仅是感谢她陪我好起来，每一次认认真真的听我讲话，更感谢她教会了我怎么正确看这个世界，怎么样正确看自己，怎么样面对自己的情绪，帮助我重构了我的生活。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">有一次上课，我的学生一坐下来就哭，哭了一节课。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我像医生陪我聊天一样，耐心陪她聊天，听她诉说和父母的相处，感同身受。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">我告诉她，她没有错，不是她想太多。我给她推荐了同样的医生。</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">我希望她永远都不要经历像我一样的迷茫，希望她从刚开始情绪不对的时候，就明白她身上发生了什么；希望也有人陪着她，帮助她好起来。</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"> </span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); text-align: center;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;">- The End -</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"/></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: tahoma, arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; outline: 0px; zoom: 1; font-weight: 700 !important; font-size: inherit !important;">同样地，我们也希望每一个正陷于心理沼泽地的你，不要放弃，不要沉溺于痛苦，向外界伸出手，助自己一臂之力。</span></span></p><p><br/></p><link rel="stylesheet" href="//www.shidaomedia.com/source/plugin/wcn_editor/public/wcn_editor_fit.css?v134_FaA" id="wcn_editor_css"/>
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发表于 2022-11-26 00:21:33
我允许你走进我的世界,但不许你在我的世界里走来走去。
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发表于 2022-12-1 06:24:26
逐字逐句地看完这个帖子以后，我的心久久不能平静，震撼啊!为什么会有如此好的帖子!我纵横网络BBS多年，自以为再也不会有任何帖子能打动我，没想到今天看到了如此精妙绝伦的这样一篇帖子!楼主，是你让我深深地理解了“人外有人，天外有天”这句话。谢谢侬!在看完这帖子以后，我没有立即回复，因为我生怕我庸俗不堪的回复会玷污了这网上少有的帖子。但是我还是回复了，因为觉得如果不能在如此精彩的帖子后面留下自己的网名，那我死也不会瞑目的!能够在如此精彩的帖子后面留下自己的网名是多么骄傲的一件事啊!楼主，请原谅我的自私!我知道无论用多么华丽的辞藻来形容楼主您帖子的精彩程度都是不够的，都是虚伪的，所以我只想说一句：您的帖子太好看了!我愿意一辈子看下去!这篇帖子构思新颖，题材独具匠心，段落清晰，情节诡异，跌宕起伏，主线分明，引人入胜，平淡中显示出不凡的文学功底，可谓是字字珠玑，句句经典，是我辈应当学习之典范。正所谓：“一马奔腾，射雕引弓，天地都在我心中!”楼主真不愧为无厘界新一代的开山怪!本来我已经对这个社区失望了，觉得这个社区没有前途了，心里充满了悲哀。但是看了你的这个帖子，又让我对社区产生了希望。是你让我的心
催眠心夏
发表于 2022-12-1 13:07:11
令人不能自拔的，除了牙齿还有爱情。
砸破、迩的纯真
发表于 2022-12-3 02:48:12
免费的东西都是最贵的。
稻草人1号
发表于 2022-12-7 23:58:24
暗恋是风，喜欢是海啸，爱是海，可人是孤岛。
咎梁判贡妹凰謲
发表于 2022-12-10 01:32:11
有人追，我不要，我就要舔，哎，就是玩儿。
Winter_c
发表于 2022-12-20 07:30:10
理想很丰满，现实却很骨感。
催眠心夏
发表于 2022-12-22 15:04:18
有人追，我不要，我就要舔，哎，就是玩儿。
何卤内
发表于 2023-1-6 07:23:40
年月把拥有变作失去。（来自光辉岁月）
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